avoiding everything to
getting my hopes up
but still somehow my heart
gets broken
i’d rather be stabbed once
than repeatedly poked
don’t tell me you’re sorry
If you’re going to keep doing it
Stop feeding into my fantasies
All I asked for is transparency
......
I laughed. I laughed and you didn’t know why. I laughed because I knew it was over. I laughed because all the stereotypes are true. I laughed at how anticlimactic that was. I laughed at myself for knowing it was over but not saying anything just so you can reach that conclusion yourself so that you can break up with me just for the sake of sparing your pride. I laughed that at the moment i felt betrayed by the person closest to me and i still picked you over myself. I laughed at the frailness of a love that was forged by the fire of adversity when it faced the coldness of fear. Maybe i’m not in love with you but i sure as hell love you.
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To be young and in love; Ah the feel!
Makes you glow from the inside, helps you heal
THIS. This is what the mainstream media has said
I’m not naive. I never let it get to my head
There I was; a happy little bee; buzzing at life
Perfectly content with me, myself and I
And one day, a ‘HI’ popped up that changed my life
Little did I know, that ‘HI’ would leave this bee mesmerized
......
you sit in your room and write songs about me
long about what we couldn’t keep
and everything we used to think
somethings sweet and somethings mean
but you’re the one who stopped talking to me
even though i was on the brink of leaving
everything you say is wrong
all those twisted up emotions in your song
or at least it’s not what you told me
telling the world your feelings is still hiding
......
how many times has it been?
The cold dagger is still there
watching all that was unseen
hearing all the unspoken words
I call you, and you don't reply
I see you but you don't see me
I touch you but you don't react
I have become a memory, a ghost
......
avoiding everything to
getting my hopes up
but still somehow my heart
gets broken
i’d rather be stabbed once
than repeatedly poked
don’t tell me you’re sorry
If you’re going to keep doing it
Stop feeding into my fantasies
All I asked for is transparency
......
you sit in your room and write songs about me
long about what we couldn’t keep
and everything we used to think
somethings sweet and somethings mean
but you’re the one who stopped talking to me
even though i was on the brink of leaving
everything you say is wrong
all those twisted up emotions in your song
or at least it’s not what you told me
telling the world your feelings is still hiding
......
When I love, I love deeply.
If I love you, I love only you
I care about what you ate for breakfast
and how much sleep you got
I want to know your favorite movies
Your favorite color
What songs you listen to.
I want the clichés
I want to watch the stars,
......
Body shaking.
Heart pumping.
Can’t breathe.
Feel like jumping.
Hot tears on the verge of falling.
Can’t break down.
Can’t start bawling.
Tears show weakness.
I’m not weak.
I’m mad as hell.
......
Love left as it arrived. Slowly.
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