Dear Nessa - Now that our marriage is over
I would like you to know that, if I could put back the clock
Fifteen years to the cold March day of our wedding,
I would wed you again and, if that marriage also broke,
I would wed you yet again and, if it a third time broke,
Wed you again, and again, and again, and again, and again:
If you would have me which, of course, you would not.
For, even you - in spite of your patience and your innocence
(Strange characteristics in an age such as our own)
- Even you require to shake off the addiction of romantic love
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I heard about this theory;
that in the perfect couple,
One will like olives, and the other will not.
One will always eat for the other.
I think that's why we never worked,
You proudly shouted your love for the salted fruit,
While I, meekly, passed mine to you.
You convinced that only you could possibly like them.
And I, well. I simply did not.
It wasn't until the end, the end of us;
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Dawdling faintin’ echoes melted
on the great wooden door
her tiny green eyes sighed
at his greasy black hair and
noted his lazy brown almond eyes
“He-hey Luna- can we talk?
Please this one time”
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you think that you are strong
but i see right through you
your heart is a glass shell
hollow and empty, a ghost in hell
you wear your coldness like a badge
but an emotional fool is what you are
because you think that you are strong
when really you are not
you think that you are brave
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A mask of smiles covers over years of heartbreak.
Silent screams begging to be free.
An old heart not healed by time.
Time will only heal if let to heal,
Emotions masked will bury deep and stay inside,
Escaping time and lasting long beyond their days.
Exactly 100 days before you decide to leave me,
I'm not complaining, I'm happy that you choose to set yourself free.
A new chapter without me, a new beginning in your life,
But the sharp pain in my heart cuts like a knife.
I remember the times when I'd get lost in your eyes,
And the feeling of being by your side, my heart flies.
Even from a distance, I could feel your emotions so deep,
As if they were mine too, a connection we keep.
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I mentioned this before, you would never love me more than I love you
You would never try to learn about me like I'm something you really want, like how I do
You won't read and gaze into my eyes, just like how I do in your deep brown eyes
But, one day, you will marry another, and would look into her eyes
You would read her every emotion just from her eyes
You would remember what are her favorite food and drinks
You would do anything for her, just like how I would for you
But, this is something that I would never get from you
The day you marry another, you would invite me to your wedding
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Last night I drank until I couldn't see straight
I drowned my sorrows in bottles and plates
The laughter and the music filled the air
But deep down I knew it wasn't fair
I spent the night with strangers I had just met
In a haze of smoke and regret
They were fun and wild, but it wasn't right
I couldn't shake the feeling of you in my sight
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Hello old friend, how have you been?
Once so familiar- and now, where to begin..
Distance, time and space, gone from all- without a trace
A vision once shared, a life to live, fully prepared, gone now
But not forgotten.
Not forgotten.
How could it be, truly, that you and me, were never meant to be when we both believed we were so earnestly.
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To my first love,
I've loved you since I was just 13,
When I heard your voice, my heart was keen.
Memories of our time together,
Still bring me joy, no matter the weather.
But guilt weighs heavy on my mind,
For what happened to us, so unkind,
I tried my best to prevent our fall,
But you still have a place in my heart, after all.
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