Paint bucket was thrown over my head full of pitch black.
From the start, I already knew.
How rigidly you kept track.
Always scared of your review.
Foolish to think I wouldn’t crack.
Wondering who I ever was to you?
You didn’t want to stay.
I had to get far away.
Now I’m searching for an archway.
......
If I speak the truth,
Under the cold light of the moon,
I wish I had never met you.
You painted yourself a saint—
Sweet, devoted, promising the world.
But you were a thief,
Taking everything from me,
Leaving nothing but emptiness.
......
A mask of smiles covers over years of heartbreak.
Silent screams begging to be free.
An old heart not healed by time.
Time will only heal if let to heal,
Emotions masked will bury deep and stay inside,
Escaping time and lasting long beyond their days.
Dear Nessa - Now that our marriage is over
I would like you to know that, if I could put back the clock
Fifteen years to the cold March day of our wedding,
I would wed you again and, if that marriage also broke,
I would wed you yet again and, if it a third time broke,
Wed you again, and again, and again, and again, and again:
If you would have me which, of course, you would not.
For, even you - in spite of your patience and your innocence
(Strange characteristics in an age such as our own)
- Even you require to shake off the addiction of romantic love
......
Last night I drank until I couldn't see straight
I drowned my sorrows in bottles and plates
The laughter and the music filled the air
But deep down I knew it wasn't fair
I spent the night with strangers I had just met
In a haze of smoke and regret
They were fun and wild, but it wasn't right
I couldn't shake the feeling of you in my sight
......
Paint bucket was thrown over my head full of pitch black.
From the start, I already knew.
How rigidly you kept track.
Always scared of your review.
Foolish to think I wouldn’t crack.
Wondering who I ever was to you?
You didn’t want to stay.
I had to get far away.
Now I’m searching for an archway.
......
Als tranen rollen
in een rivier van verdriet,
over rode gezwollen wangen,
geeft dat een aanzicht van pijn
zoals men ziet.
Maar waarheen
leidt de weg van onmacht,
waarin harten breken
en gevoelens verbleken?
......
We hebben zoveel jaren gedeeld
dromen opgebouwd,muren gesloopt
elkaar leren kennen in stilte en storm
ik dacht dat wij zouden blijven.
Jouw ogen zeiden niets toen ik het vroeg
je stem werd stil waar waarheid
hoorde te zijn
en in die stilte groeide een breuk
niet van gisteren,maar van langzaam verdwijnen.
......
Je zat daar zoals vroeger,
maar de stilte tussen ons was nieuw.
Geen woede,geen tranen,
alleen het zachte gewicht
van wat er niet meer is.
Je lachte,beleefd,
alsof we elkaar voor het eerst zagen.
Mijn handen bleven waar ze waren,
alsof ze jou niet meer herkenden.
We spraken over het weer,
......
Dit het begin as 'n fluister,
'n gedagte te klein om vas te hou.
'n Vaag skadu,
weggekruip in die hoeke van my hart.
Ek het dit nie gesoek nie,
maar dit het my gevind.
Elke kyk,elke woord
het die twyfel laat groei,
'n vorm gegee,
......