My biggest mistake
was loving you
with all the parts of me
I should have saved.
I gave you silence
when you needed truth,
patience
when you gave me distance,
hope
......
I had a little crush
On a guy I thought was perfect
Never thought I’d make a first move
But then it just so happened
That I did
We met up when I saw him
We laughed we talked we got home
He kissed me softly
He held me in his arms
Next week he started texting
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And you dream,
and you try,
but, you're still not alive.
Then you close off again,
and you go home,
and you cry,
and you want to die.
Warning yourself against letting
......
Slipping.
Faster and faster.
Why won't you stay.
You don't need to go any faster.
I can keep up.
Promise me you will wait.
My hand is slipping may we please go slower.
Your hand moving away faster.
Please I want to hold onto you longer.
You're letting me go.
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Oh my dear melancholy please take me away
I have no feelings of feeling the light of day
I'm in a place where yellow is grey
And no one listens to me when I pray
Maybe someone will acknowledge me some day
Or they will notice me when death takes my breath away
My heart is a crime scene, wrapped around caution tape.
If you enter you have blood on your hands. You become an accomplice to a crime you didn’t commit.
My heart is a crime scene… they stood around me and I heard them call it a crime of passion, he took his time to beat me, bruise me and break me.
My heart is a crime scene, there’s red tape and do not enter signs at the door, telling you not to enter. You may get blamed for a crime you didn’t commit.
My heart is a crime scene, with everything stopping you from entry. So tell me why a man with brown eyes and a soft smile made me feel alive again. Tell me why the crime scene now feels like a safe place to enter.
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I don’t know what to do.
All I do is hurt
All I do is hurt people
I don’t know what to do.
What do I do?
What do I do?
What do I do?
I should not have ever spoken to others
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We hebben zoveel jaren gedeeld
dromen opgebouwd,muren gesloopt
elkaar leren kennen in stilte en storm
ik dacht dat wij zouden blijven.
Jouw ogen zeiden niets toen ik het vroeg
je stem werd stil waar waarheid
hoorde te zijn
en in die stilte groeide een breuk
niet van gisteren,maar van langzaam verdwijnen.
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What do I do?
I feel like everything just keeps going wrong.
Things get worse and worse and never improve.
Every time I see the light, I can never reach it.
What do I do?
Hope is there.
Just at the edge of my fingers.
At the tip of my tongue.
It’s under my nose.
......
My biggest mistake
was loving you
with all the parts of me
I should have saved.
I gave you silence
when you needed truth,
patience
when you gave me distance,
hope
......