How do I explain
That my emotions are painful
That happiness is euphoria
That anger is blinded rage
That love borders obsession
How do I explain
That my emotions are my enemy
That sadness is suicidal thoughts
That pain is an agonizing fire that consumes me
That emotions are a hurricane
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Loneliness, Emotional pain, walks with us through the day,
and sleeps with us through the night,
Tears that is not visible to the naked eye,
silent screams that no one can hear,
feeling of relentless distress,
Trapped with nowhere to turn,
life is changing beyond our control,
someone else is pulling the strings,
causing this deep ache in the bottom of our soul.
but remember, for every soul there is a soul that touches yours –
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Their force is excessive
, extremely aggressive
with a selective few, if you surprised it's not you.
You probably wouldn't understand
But feel me cuz me and mine can comprehend to
Barney Fife, In his hands playing with my life,
it ain't right to send him out at night,
mad at his wife, cause she leaving.... The second divorce in Four seasons,
Another reason for pistol packin and thieving, with tricks up his sleeve if he sleeveless,
check his boots & pop the trunk Mr Fife where's the loot?
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It’s a warning.
If I perish, I perish
But I will not shut up.
Lust is not love.
Porn is not harmless.
Masturbation is not a phase.
I lived it
Not ‘cause I was raised wrong,
But because sin crept in through a simple ad at twelve.
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She’s tricky
She undermines your progress
Suggesting things based on what you’re weak about
You realize in her absence it was all nonsense
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She attacks you, she protects you
She distract you with things you don’t need
Just to get herself stronger
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shakti faculty uncoils awake, rise
sacred kundalini life-force stream
connecting radiant spiral wheels gleam
ecstatic prana floods to paradise
creative energy winding serene
unifies with cosmic Supreme divine
sanctified exposed exalted benign
purified individual Soul seen
equal masculine and feminine poles
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SOUL MEMORY
Aligning core below to above
Sirius clapped in glee
urging group into Time out of Space
Pyramid, triangle of my refuge
and direction
Mercury watched soul circling Squinx
Dogons ancient guiding mission
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{ “Awareness : He began to decipher the instant that he was living, deciphering as he lived it, prophesying himself in the act of deciphering the last page of the parchments, as if he were looking into a speaking mirror.” -
Gabriel Garcia Marques }
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Mirrors of Mercury
Who is Shams and who Rumi
is like asking who is fork and who knife when apart they sing not a single song
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END TIMES : ONE
[Poet’s Note : This poem arose out of a quote in Bible by Christ : “I will open my mouth in parables. I will utter things hidden since the creation of the world…This is how it will be at the end of the age…: Matt 13 : 31
I likewise will open my mouth in poems. I will utter dark secrets hidden in closets as Mother Earth transitions into Cosmic Heart. Let all truths be told.]
Her crippled body
hobbled disjointed to
peck my cheek
like Judas it
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Petals unfurl like whispered promises,
soft in the morning hush-
but beneath, the thorns remember
what the flower chooses to forget.
Beauty leans toward the sun
as if light alone could sustain it,
yet the roots sip from shadow,
drawing life from the silence below.
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