My anxiety holds me hostage in my house
Anxiety is the out-of-town show-off cousin that depression felt obligated to bring to the party
I am the party
Only I am the party I don't want to be at
It's not a party if no one shows up for the snacks and drinks
My thoughts are the snacks my emotions always cheer to
My emotions are the only friends I always cuddle and roast marshmallows over the raging campfire in my heart with
My heart is the camp tent I never let anyone into
Only now, I have to find a way to let them in
To save me... From... Myself
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I feel lonely.
I must succeed.
Can I call my parents?
No, they have too much on their plates.
Can I call my teachers?
No, We only discuss school work.
Can I call my friends?
No, they are always too busy, and never pick up the phone.
Can I call That Friend?
… No, I cannot have her worry about me.
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Unspilled tears hidden behind her hollow shouts,
When noxious scars highlight secrets of years
Absolutely carved unfulfilled dreams
From Silent screams to broken mirrors,
Reveal cruel actions that grace her skin,
Chaotic smile that start to disappear
Unveiling the battle, yet to win
Purring desires that no one ever hear.
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I try to fight you–
But my punches turn to clouds
After pressure, rain
Life gets faster every day,
No time to think, no time to play.
Hurry, chaos, lots of stress;
Tension leads to sleeplessness.
When will all this madness cease?
Where is free time? Where is peace?
I’m running, doing, till I drop.
Give me buttons: Pause, Mute, Stop!
its 1:47 in the morning.
i cant sleep.
i have no emotion, yet im overly stressed
i keep zoning out
letters are moving, the walls are shrinking
i feel like i cant get out of bed, but i can
my head doesnt hurt but its still pounding
i cant stop biting the skin around my nails
my heart hurts, it feels as if my chest were being punched.
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since days im feeling very stressed
but at a point i think i'm also depressed
i don't remember the last time showing myself being messed
today there was not just a heavy heart in my chest
i thought i was in hiding the best
but it turned out, me failing the test
keeping it in secret, that was my quest
but feeling pressed in the chest, gave me the rest
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Is there a way to eliminate all Fear?
Can we be Happy and live with Cheer?
Can we stop Worrying and living with Stress?
Can we eliminate Anxiety that makes our life, a Mess?
Let’s discover the secret to Peace and Happiness!
Is your life filled with Depression?
Do you want to make your life a Celebration?
The culprit, the enemy, is your own Mind
It’s robbing your Peace and Bliss, you will Find!
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I try to fight you–
But my punches turn to clouds
After pressure, rain
My anxiety holds me hostage in my house
Anxiety is the out-of-town show-off cousin that depression felt obligated to bring to the party
I am the party
Only I am the party I don't want to be at
It's not a party if no one shows up for the snacks and drinks
My thoughts are the snacks my emotions always cheer to
My emotions are the only friends I always cuddle and roast marshmallows over the raging campfire in my heart with
My heart is the camp tent I never let anyone into
Only now, I have to find a way to let them in
To save me... From... Myself
......