Exhausted eyes starring at ceiling
Not knowing words that can explain this feeling
A healthy state hard to maintain
Will I ever be completely normal again?
Trying to ignore my inner turmoil
Feeling under the weather for a while
Frequent trips to hospital in a life full of pain
Will I ever be completely normal again?
......
I do not want to be healthy
Not in that way people assume, that i want to stuff my face with crisps and chocolate and never get up off my bed, not that kind of unhealthy
The kind where you know that something’s not right
Because one minute you’re over the moon and the next you’re plummeting back down to earth with the force of an asteroid your tears following like stardust but you won't do anything about it because you need it to feel alive
The kind where you stare into your reflection's eyes as you drown yourself in chemicals to become like porcelain
The kind where you work and work for hours on end until you’re body gives out and your mind shuts off. Till your hands cramp up and there’s blood, real blood, pained blood, smeared across your pencil
......
Er is een stilte die niet uit rust bestaat,
maar uit het wachten van iets
dat geen naam draagt.
Mijn gevoelens dragen het leven in bescheidenheid,
terwijl het hart vertraagd pompt door de onzekerheid.
Elke stap voelt als een keuze
tussen blijven en verdwalen.
De dagen schuiven voorbij
als wolken die geen richting kennen.
......
my mind is overthinking
the ship keeps on sinking
the cup is overflowing
but my mind keeps on going
nothing but my anxiety growing
my sadness surely showing
but my mind is now rowing in my thoughts
the ship might as well be a yacht
a party for the distraught
with the demons they haven't yet caught
......
Fibromyalgia
Fibromyalgia is an illness that often besets
Women and men who can not help themselves
It's a syndrome that causes great pain and distress
It even causes its victims to feel overwhelmed
And cold damp weather only increases the chance
That muscles will cramp and increase the stress
And though one looks the same at a glance
......
Er is een stilte die niet uit rust bestaat,
maar uit het wachten van iets
dat geen naam draagt.
Mijn gevoelens dragen het leven in bescheidenheid,
terwijl het hart vertraagd pompt door de onzekerheid.
Elke stap voelt als een keuze
tussen blijven en verdwalen.
De dagen schuiven voorbij
als wolken die geen richting kennen.
......
Exhausted eyes starring at ceiling
Not knowing words that can explain this feeling
A healthy state hard to maintain
Will I ever be completely normal again?
Trying to ignore my inner turmoil
Feeling under the weather for a while
Frequent trips to hospital in a life full of pain
Will I ever be completely normal again?
......
I do not want to be healthy
Not in that way people assume, that i want to stuff my face with crisps and chocolate and never get up off my bed, not that kind of unhealthy
The kind where you know that something’s not right
Because one minute you’re over the moon and the next you’re plummeting back down to earth with the force of an asteroid your tears following like stardust but you won't do anything about it because you need it to feel alive
The kind where you stare into your reflection's eyes as you drown yourself in chemicals to become like porcelain
The kind where you work and work for hours on end until you’re body gives out and your mind shuts off. Till your hands cramp up and there’s blood, real blood, pained blood, smeared across your pencil
......
Fibromyalgia
Fibromyalgia is an illness that often besets
Women and men who can not help themselves
It's a syndrome that causes great pain and distress
It even causes its victims to feel overwhelmed
And cold damp weather only increases the chance
That muscles will cramp and increase the stress
And though one looks the same at a glance
......
my mind is overthinking
the ship keeps on sinking
the cup is overflowing
but my mind keeps on going
nothing but my anxiety growing
my sadness surely showing
but my mind is now rowing in my thoughts
the ship might as well be a yacht
a party for the distraught
with the demons they haven't yet caught
......