Exhausted eyes starring at ceiling
Not knowing words that can explain this feeling
A healthy state hard to maintain
Will I ever be completely normal again?

Trying to ignore my inner turmoil 
Feeling under the weather for a while 
Frequent trips to hospital in a life full of pain 
Will I ever be completely normal again?

Test reports getting worse once more
Sending shivers to my very core
Yearning for health, with all my might
I will be completely normal, right?

Four pills in the morning, two at night 
Weakened body trying to fight 
Hope these medications won't go in vein 
Will I ever be completely normal again?

Watching people my age enjoying their life
While balancing myself on the edge of knife 
Suppressing the overthinking during the sleepless night
I'll be healthy soon, right?

Ofcourse I'll complain, ofcourse I'll whine
What I've done to deserve this time?
Going through the medical tests I never known before 
Will I be completely healthy again? I ask once more.

Sympathetic eyes looking at sight
Reminding me I'm not completely right
With a fragile hope, Begging for wellness 
Trapped in a ruthless cycle, a prisoner of illness.

-Aditi Hayaran (Larkspur)