In the quiet of my home,
where I thought I’d found some peace,
He hid his eyes in shadows,
his cruelty never ceased.
With cameras set in secret,
to watch me through my strife,
He recorded every struggle,
every moment of my life.
His goal was not just to hurt,
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The hue of green in my eyes hides the darkness below,
But my charming smile distracts best.
I'm not as soft as my skin feels,
Or as tough as my morning voice sounds.
I do my best convincing underneath a mask.
I am weaker than my words.
A combination of 26 little letters,
Teeny.
Tiny.
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A multitude of fortnights passed us by,
We passents of time, our sorrow, we tried.
A spell of brief written touches.
Time and space were arranged.
The earth turned and turned.
Time and space were burned.
The wind ceased carrying sound.
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I laughed. I laughed and you didn’t know why. I laughed because I knew it was over. I laughed because all the stereotypes are true. I laughed at how anticlimactic that was. I laughed at myself for knowing it was over but not saying anything just so you can reach that conclusion yourself so that you can break up with me just for the sake of sparing your pride. I laughed that at the moment i felt betrayed by the person closest to me and i still picked you over myself. I laughed at the frailness of a love that was forged by the fire of adversity when it faced the coldness of fear. Maybe i’m not in love with you but i sure as hell love you.
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And as the letters of my name curl beneath your lips,
I hope they burn like vinegar and drip down your chin.
I hope the thought of who I am wraps your skull like the crown of thorns you love to nag about
When you crucify my reputation,
I hope you think of the religion you announce so proud.
Tell me, does Jesus lie to save himself?
In the quiet of my home,
where I thought I’d found some peace,
He hid his eyes in shadows,
his cruelty never ceased.
With cameras set in secret,
to watch me through my strife,
He recorded every struggle,
every moment of my life.
His goal was not just to hurt,
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Under the first rain's gentle embrace,
I sat at the gate, a smile on my face,
Inhaling the earth's sweet, familiar scent,
"Mitti ki khushboo," a cherished event.
Once, I'd envisioned us dancing in the rain,
Laughing and walking, free from all pain,
But today, as the raindrops fell from above,
I found solace in nature, in the absence of love.
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Heavy is the head that wears the crown,
The royal blue keeps wrapping round my heart.
Pushing me down, I’m about to drown.
It’s fine, I want to depart.
A brave new world I’ll find,
An ethereal place for your eternal beauty,
Where nobody’s going to mind,
A place where we won’t be on duty.
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Please can someone come and take me away?
living a life-the most miserable one-
it hurts like hell
don't wanna live anymore
just want to end it all.
living with a heavy heart is such a mess
seeing smiling faces happy people enjoying now and then
and here I am standing aloof of 'em all
trying hard to hide my pain and cope with my life
but over and over again i find myself trapped in that vicious cycle where it nearly seems impossible to ever come out
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Kaisi jindagi hai , sabke samne hothon pe hasi hai aankhon me chamak hai jindagi jeene ki chah hai
Aur andar se insaan pura tabah hai
Apna atit bhul na paye,zakhm mere wo puraane kabhi bhar na paaye
phir bhi sab kuch apne muskan me chupaye ye parinda udta jaye
Dil me ab wo pyaar nahi wo pehli jaisi pyaas ni,sab kuch kho chuki hun
bahar se puri andar se bas khokli bachi hun
Aankhon me laankhon armaan sajaye chalti ja ri hun
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