I am lost.
I was broken long ago.
Tried to fix myself but I don't know
How much is me
And how much is the seeds
Planted in my memories,
A darkness hidden deep.
So push me down
To the ground,
......
I hope I made the right decision
It's all for good
Call me selfish
Call me impatient
But it took me a thousand nights thinking if it could be better to finish this.
I'll take all the blame
Call me stupid
Call me crap
But flicker was the last resort I had.
......
On the dark and gloomy night
Walking down the lonely trail
As if she was destined to fail.
With no clear destination in her mind
Escaping from something
Maybe it’s from her past.
With all the heartbreaks and scars
She wears her beautiful smile
......
Some days I question do I wish
That we had never met
I wouldn’t spend my days and nights
Trying to forget
I wouldn’t feel this unrelenting
Agonising pain
I wouldn’t feel this lost; knowing
I’ll never be me again
......
I lied and lied
A thousand times
For years and years
I thought it was mine
Born to love and be loved
I thought that's how it's like
Now, I am lonely and misunderstood
Thrown off and shoved aside.
Was I wanted? If I was
......
It doesn't take much to be a broken person,
consumed by suffering and pain.
For being broken becomes a person's identity
in a way that is impossible to explain.
Sometimes, but not always, a broke person
is given the power to heal.
Their given strength and guidance
and the ability to truly feel
......
On the dark and gloomy night
Walking down the lonely trail
As if she was destined to fail.
With no clear destination in her mind
Escaping from something
Maybe it’s from her past.
With all the heartbreaks and scars
She wears her beautiful smile
......
I lied and lied
A thousand times
For years and years
I thought it was mine
Born to love and be loved
I thought that's how it's like
Now, I am lonely and misunderstood
Thrown off and shoved aside.
Was I wanted? If I was
......
Sugary flowers, dazzle sky
now seems to be dry
Every shining star
looks like a lie
The beauty of the moon
appears to be dry
Everything looks so blue and dry
I don't know why,
I don't know why.
I'm lying here trying
to imagine
The might it would require
to be better
Bubbling under the surface
are my sins
Sizzling
The weight of all my crimes
combining with my lies
makes a fire
......