With apology to T.S. Eliot
I arrived where I longed for
nothing new did I see
it seemed such a waste of time
I scored no victory-
my steps I retraced immediately
to turn back to the beginning
it was no longer there:
......
The Facade
Journeys riddled with incessant pain
Yet the scars never show
brought to my knees in agony
Yet they remain unscraped
Maybe there is no pain
This was a waste
......
The one who drives me crazy
Yet still makes me feel safe
Although I scream and snap at you
You still put up with me.
It's an honor to be your girlfriend
Anybody else would agree
You're so much greener than a flag
And your generosity never ends.
......
I'm sorry for the pain I've caused,
For the hurt that I have brought,
My words and actions were not paused,
And now it's all for naught.
I never meant to cause you harm,
To bring you tears or make you ache,
I know my actions were alarm,
And for that, my heart does break.
......
I'm tired,
Exhausted of apologizing
To everyone for everything I've done
And sometimes for things that I've not,
For all my stupid decisions and actions,
For doing something that I'm not even guilty of,
But your ego demands my apology,
So here it is...
Forgive me for being myself
Forgive me for prioritizing myself over you
......
The one who drives me crazy
Yet still makes me feel safe
Although I scream and snap at you
You still put up with me.
It's an honor to be your girlfriend
Anybody else would agree
You're so much greener than a flag
And your generosity never ends.
......
The Facade
Journeys riddled with incessant pain
Yet the scars never show
brought to my knees in agony
Yet they remain unscraped
Maybe there is no pain
This was a waste
......
With apology to T.S. Eliot
I arrived where I longed for
nothing new did I see
it seemed such a waste of time
I scored no victory-
my steps I retraced immediately
to turn back to the beginning
it was no longer there:
......
The grass, not greener on the distant side, yet it gleams,
The hare treads, nibbles, undisturbed it seems,
Why do his steps not leave their mark?
Untrampled, untouched, in this tranquil park,
It accepts, it embraces, it quietly endures,
The hare's presence, its essence, it secures.
Here where I reside, the grass bears the weight,
I'm the hare, whose fate's a different state,
They hide and shield, no signs of disdain,
......
I'm sorry for the hurt I caused,
The pain that lingers, the wounds still raw.
I wish I could turn back time,
And make things right, fix what's not fine.
I know I hurt you, I caused you pain,
And I regret it all, again and again.
My words and actions were thoughtless, I know,
And I am sorry, more than I can show.
......