I said I would only write when I'm hurt,
And here I am writing again,
But this time the pain runs deep,
And I can't pretend.
I hate to feel this way,
To be so lost and alone,
I always thought I had it all together,
But now I realize I've never truly shone.
......
Sometimes the loneliness feels like theres a hole inside of me,
one that cannot be filled with anything but the comfort I find in sadness.
And if I let that sadness and sorrow go
what do I have left?
I fear I have grown so attached to that comfort of being sad
that I will never be able to let go of it.
In shadows deep, where silence lies,
A soul concealed, with hidden cries.
I stand before the world, a facade so strong,
While inside I crumble, feeling so wrong.
Like porcelain fragile, I start to crack,
Yet I keep pretending, never looking back.
A scream echoes within, a desperate plea,
But the abyss swallows, consuming me.
......
My heart, breaks each day
No one knows, they don't have to know
But it breaks each time I think about it
Some days I feel like a failure
Though I always make myself seem like a champion
Some days I feel like the ugliest girl
Though I would always self praise when I'm around others
I would overwork and stress myself out
Fall sick, health deteriorating
......
Dejection in life
Makes me more reflective
I feel relieved
As poetry turns effective
In the deep gloom
Engulfing all my happiness
With no blooms
In my utter hopelessness.
Hard days fly away
......
Exactly 100 days before you decide to leave me,
I'm not complaining, I'm happy that you choose to set yourself free.
A new chapter without me, a new beginning in your life,
But the sharp pain in my heart cuts like a knife.
I remember the times when I'd get lost in your eyes,
And the feeling of being by your side, my heart flies.
Even from a distance, I could feel your emotions so deep,
As if they were mine too, a connection we keep.
......
I said I would only write when I'm hurt,
And here I am writing again,
But this time the pain runs deep,
And I can't pretend.
I hate to feel this way,
To be so lost and alone,
I always thought I had it all together,
But now I realize I've never truly shone.
......
My heart, breaks each day
No one knows, they don't have to know
But it breaks each time I think about it
Some days I feel like a failure
Though I always make myself seem like a champion
Some days I feel like the ugliest girl
Though I would always self praise when I'm around others
I would overwork and stress myself out
Fall sick, health deteriorating
......
In shadows deep, where silence lies,
A soul concealed, with hidden cries.
I stand before the world, a facade so strong,
While inside I crumble, feeling so wrong.
Like porcelain fragile, I start to crack,
Yet I keep pretending, never looking back.
A scream echoes within, a desperate plea,
But the abyss swallows, consuming me.
......
Around and around goes the carousel,
Its grim melody pries into your bones,
Oh, to this merry carnival, the fallen angels welcome you well,
Take a seat, have a drink, make yourself at home.
Around and around goes the carousel,
The figures who ride it find themselves lacking a face,
But isn't it so lovely, its echoing call?
So come take a seat, come find your place.
......