My heart, breaks each day
No one knows, they don't have to know
But it breaks each time I think about it
Some days I feel like a failure
Though I always make myself seem like a champion
Some days I feel like the ugliest girl
Though I would always self praise when I'm around others
I would overwork and stress myself out
Fall sick, health deteriorating
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Sometimes I don’t know what’s racing through my mind,
The person I’m supposed to be is very hard to find,
Passion is inexistent there nothing I desire a little bit,
Though I try to seek a piece of hope the results remain unfit,
Thoughts and feelings I possess but lack the energy,
And automatically I absorb all of life’s negativity,
I keep on pushing through it all hoping to breakthrough,
But sadly the outcome results in nothing new,
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In my restless dreams, Im free
I feel no pain or sorrow.
In those dreams
my mind is free of all troubles,
my body doesnt ache with such despair and loneliness, and my heart is full of love
not being torn apart with sadness.
Achter de voordeur
ligt geen straat,
geen voorbijganger,
geen groet met haast.
Daar woont stilte
in de vorm van gewoonten:
een jas op dezelfde haak,
een sleutel in het schaaltje,
de geur van gisteren
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Exactly 100 days before you decide to leave me,
I'm not complaining, I'm happy that you choose to set yourself free.
A new chapter without me, a new beginning in your life,
But the sharp pain in my heart cuts like a knife.
I remember the times when I'd get lost in your eyes,
And the feeling of being by your side, my heart flies.
Even from a distance, I could feel your emotions so deep,
As if they were mine too, a connection we keep.
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I said I would only write when I'm hurt,
And here I am writing again,
But this time the pain runs deep,
And I can't pretend.
I hate to feel this way,
To be so lost and alone,
I always thought I had it all together,
But now I realize I've never truly shone.
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