Silliness is an attitude
Presumptuous somber solitude
Its a way of viewing life
Regardless of sickness or strife
I wash the pain in my eyes, every time I cry
The pain Speaks in a monotone voice
“Will you hide me again?
By being Silly tonight?
Silliness is how I fight
......
This world has lost its meaning,
This freedom has its shackles
Of self-doubt while dreaming
A promise to try harder
An attempt to recover from the battles
But what for?is the purpose of denying the inevitable,
Is this hunger insatiable?
Is this moment unrelatable?
This feeling of being outside one’s self
All due to the worry that Im
......
I try too hard
I look too deep
I glance too far
I climb too steep
I groan in pain
I missed the leap
I watch the rain
I watch and weep
An eternal dream
I laugh in sleep
......
What do I want ?
What do I want ?
Did I ever think about it ?
Have I ever asked myself ?
Have I ever heard the voice of my heart ?
Have I ever asked myself
Where does my happiness lie ?
No I never thought about it
No I never asked myself .
Was just living my life
......
I lived by myself
So, I healed up myself
Started understanding myself
Rather than doubting myself
I stood up for myself,
I fought with myself
Until I got dependent on myself.
Yes, it sounds selfish,
But trust me
Sometimes, it's okay
......
I try too hard
I look too deep
I glance too far
I climb too steep
I groan in pain
I missed the leap
I watch the rain
I watch and weep
An eternal dream
I laugh in sleep
......
This world has lost its meaning,
This freedom has its shackles
Of self-doubt while dreaming
A promise to try harder
An attempt to recover from the battles
But what for?is the purpose of denying the inevitable,
Is this hunger insatiable?
Is this moment unrelatable?
This feeling of being outside one’s self
All due to the worry that Im
......
Silliness is an attitude
Presumptuous somber solitude
Its a way of viewing life
Regardless of sickness or strife
I wash the pain in my eyes, every time I cry
The pain Speaks in a monotone voice
“Will you hide me again?
By being Silly tonight?
Silliness is how I fight
......
I walk with a regal grace, chest lifted high,
A face radiant, capturing every wandering eye.
Curiosity dances in the air, whispers and stares,
They all crave to know the tale that my presence declares.
Some approach with kind wishes, others with intent to break,
But I meet their efforts with laughter, for what's a smile but a fleeting take?
Yet as I retreat to my room's cocoon of solitary,
I realize my aloneness, my facade of confidence now temporary.
......
I despise the ocean
but this girl in my head does not
She is not afraid to love
and she is not afraid to rot
And if it can't be perfect
then it shan't be done at all
Tip back in your chair
Slam your head against the wall
......