I lived by myself
So, I healed up myself
Started understanding myself
Rather than doubting myself
I stood up for myself,
I fought with myself
Until I got dependent on myself.
Yes, it sounds selfish,
But trust me
Sometimes, it's okay
......
Sometimes,
It's okay to no
It's okay to be alone,
It's okay to be own.
Just look at the mirror and realise,
It's time to put people aside
And be idealised.
It's time to choose yourself first,
It's time to love yourself first.
I felt that my light could be outcast by their brightness
When I looked up at the sky , I saw that moon's brightness could not outcast stars
They are capable and add beauty to the sky same way you are capable and add beauty to the world .
First time I was happy to have a counter feeling
I am hurt so I hurt you.
Your touch lets me live.
Your hug gives me safety and security.
Your subtle fleeting kisses make me feel loved.
I can't give you the love you want and deserve.
Yet I let you give it to me.
It is selfish.
......
Oh he’s ever-changing
But still in love with who he was
Never perfect, yet always enough
Heart and intentions are invariably to please
Oof his demons get the best of him
Evolving daily to meet his higher-self
But gahh damn! he seems busy
One day they’ll connect and see
He was inside him, the whole journey
That day is not too far
......
Walking down the giant road
Lights ever bright, beings unknown
I'm the alien, displaced and lone
In this strange realm I can't call home
Adrift in a sea where I'll never belong
Peering at fractured reflections, feeling so wrong
But then a few souls, with welcoming grace
Reached out to this alien, fashioned a place
......
Walking into the garden
with my third eye open
Destined for all the dirt
that will seep in
between my toes
To watch every sunrise
and every sunset
surrounded by vivacious greenery
......
How lucky I am to have experienced such pure, genuine love,
Which showed me what true love should look and feel like.
I might not currently receive that love,
But one day, I will find someone who can give me that love eternally.
I love intensely,
I used to think that was a flaw, but I now see it as my best trait.
Because I finally love myself,
And though I am saddened by losing my other half,
I am learning how to be whole alone.
......
Do I love myself?
What does it mean to love?
Is this a yes or no question?
I looked at my body with glory,
Maybe tomorrow but
Just now and not a week ago.
I find things funny,
My body was the first thing that came to mind.
What if my love was swapped from the pedestal?
......
No mirror can hold the ugliness of my face,
It breaks into pieces when I look at it.
All I can do is cry,
Hoping that Im blind so I dont have to worry
about how I look,
and I cant see people judging me
I hope I can gouge out their eyes.