Walking down the giant road
Lights ever bright, beings unknown
I'm the alien, displaced and lone
In this strange realm I can't call home
Adrift in a sea where I'll never belong
Peering at fractured reflections, feeling so wrong
But then a few souls, with welcoming grace
Reached out to this alien, fashioned a place
......
I am hurt so I hurt you.
Your touch lets me live.
Your hug gives me safety and security.
Your subtle fleeting kisses make me feel loved.
I can't give you the love you want and deserve.
Yet I let you give it to me.
It is selfish.
......
If you want to be successful,
by other people's standards,
you need to learn to compromise,
and get the hell out of your own way.
Learn to lose sleep
and stay on point.
Learn to lie, flatter, and sweat.
Because climbing that ladder will become your whole life, and its a long fall to the bottom.
......
Going back and forth
Between our unsettled score
What do we torture ourselves for?
The way I feel your energy
All up above and around me
You know that I will never stay
If it is to beg you
For your name
Make it known
Before I become
......
Deep Down,
I think you hate me
because I'm pretty,
and cool.
Even when we in public
you're acting a fool.
Dead-Naming,
......
Walking down the giant road
Lights ever bright, beings unknown
I'm the alien, displaced and lone
In this strange realm I can't call home
Adrift in a sea where I'll never belong
Peering at fractured reflections, feeling so wrong
But then a few souls, with welcoming grace
Reached out to this alien, fashioned a place
......
Walking into the garden
with my third eye open
Destined for all the dirt
that will seep in
between my toes
To watch every sunrise
and every sunset
surrounded by vivacious greenery
......
How lucky I am to have experienced such pure, genuine love,
Which showed me what true love should look and feel like.
I might not currently receive that love,
But one day, I will find someone who can give me that love eternally.
I love intensely,
I used to think that was a flaw, but I now see it as my best trait.
Because I finally love myself,
And though I am saddened by losing my other half,
I am learning how to be whole alone.
......
Do I love myself?
What does it mean to love?
Is this a yes or no question?
I looked at my body with glory,
Maybe tomorrow but
Just now and not a week ago.
I find things funny,
My body was the first thing that came to mind.
What if my love was swapped from the pedestal?
......
No mirror can hold the ugliness of my face,
It breaks into pieces when I look at it.
All I can do is cry,
Hoping that Im blind so I dont have to worry
about how I look,
and I cant see people judging me
I hope I can gouge out their eyes.