I tried to find you,
Tried, tried, tried to find you.
But you’re hiding from yourself,
Behind a wall of bricks that seem
So, so, so
Unbreakable
Making it impossible to see you.
For who you really are.
You’re afraid of letting go,
......
A midnight dream,
A morning thought, you watch the world,
Curl up and die.
Madness lives inside your head,
Of dreams lost, and pages dead.
A mind possessed, by demons of old,
tormented mind with a fragile
heart
By Ujjal Mandal, India
Thoughts have a continual succession
of complacency or anxiety,
black thoughts paint me a fire fly
that emits light mere in the darkness.
I am like the flowing air
neither I have head to think
nor the arm to catch,
......
Five-legged pocket spiders, knuckled
starfish, grabbers of forks, why
do I forget that you love me:
your willingness to button my shirts,
tie my shoes—even scratch my head!
which throbs like a traffic jam, each thought
leaning on its horn. I see you
waiting anyplace always
at the ends of my arms—for the doctor,
......
You
are
matter
so
You
matter
I tried to find you,
Tried, tried, tried to find you.
But you’re hiding from yourself,
Behind a wall of bricks that seem
So, so, so
Unbreakable
Making it impossible to see you.
For who you really are.
You’re afraid of letting go,
......
Someone there is at it,
That likes the very bit,
Scorning all for flattery,
Or as is at, for some treat,
To the very end of the initial start.
Something there is that shows,
Outgrown and visible on no hearts,
Flattery like, mouthing out for bites,
Or as it be, for same reasons as hers,
......
I'm nobody, who are you?
You're somebody you say, is that true?
Well I can't be somebody, they say it's not so.
I am nobody and that's all I know.
Well yes, I AM me, but that's all that I've got.
Still a somebody I am not.
I can't deny what they say I am--
......
I am too big for my body.
The echos of once forgotten voices bicker and plead in my mind,
once dead but now alive inside of me.
The full spectrum of life--
with its compounding complexities and relentless emotion--
rages against me like a storm,
coloring the world around me;
Here, the walls are painted with melancholy,
the floors littered with shedded skin.
My anger provides the light;
......
I am everything I say I am,
and everything I'm not.
My peaks grow high into the sky
while my valleys fill with rot.
My dark eclipses my light
as my inner world expands.
I am everything I don't want to be,
and everything I am.