When you think of flowers
blooming you think of the
stages they must go through-
to get to the point of being
admired by the world, even
captivating a lover's eye-
as if it is waiting to be plucked and cherished eagerly.
But the ones I cherish
bloom in my heart. You planted
them there so unexpectedly.
......
I despise the ocean
but this girl in my head does not
She is not afraid to love
and she is not afraid to rot
And if it can't be perfect
then it shan't be done at all
Tip back in your chair
Slam your head against the wall
......
So desperately i tried to right my wrongs, healing the scars i had left behind.
Such a terrible card i dealt him because i was incapable of loving him.
All the times i told him how much i hated him making sure he knew how little he was worth.
How afraid he must have been of me, each time i showed up more battered then the last.
So regretfully i hugged the boy in the mirror.
I should be placed in a psychiatric ward
The thoughts in my head aren’t always so pleasant
Some may make you wish you forget it
My head is a fucked up place
But it’s the only place where I feel safe
The real world isn’t for someone like me
I belong in a special place
Where I can have a thought and then
Make people poison me with medicine so I don’t act on it
......
"Blues Of An Eleven Year Old"
I wonder how it was for her
To be with you.
And I wonder very often
What it is like - to be you.
......
"Blues Of An Eleven Year Old"
I wonder how it was for her
To be with you.
And I wonder very often
What it is like - to be you.
......
"The Battle of Life Is Fought Uphill"
was daddy’s favorite quote, till
it was finally inscribed
on his gravestone,
right at the foot of the hill,
......
I despise the ocean
but this girl in my head does not
She is not afraid to love
and she is not afraid to rot
And if it can't be perfect
then it shan't be done at all
Tip back in your chair
Slam your head against the wall
......
When you think of flowers
blooming you think of the
stages they must go through-
to get to the point of being
admired by the world, even
captivating a lover's eye-
as if it is waiting to be plucked and cherished eagerly.
But the ones I cherish
bloom in my heart. You planted
them there so unexpectedly.
......
When I'm with you
Your happiness is catching
Getting caught on my skin
spreading through me like wildfire
All over me
And into me
Deep into my soul
Until my heart is ablaze
A fire with everlasting radiant warmth