I said I wanted quiet—
now I flinch when I get it.
There’s a hum in the silence
that sounds like regret,
but I don’t name it.
Not out loud.
I still walk like I’m untouchable.
Still flirt with ruin like it’s mine to keep.
But some nights, I miss softness
......
I have this sinking feeling that something bad is about to happen
I don't know what this bad thing is. but it is coming.
I feel as if there is something on the horizon hanging over my every move
I am utterly terrified that I am about to lose something.
As if I am about to lose something so terribly important that I would not exist without it.
I am utterly afraid that I am about to lose myself and there is nothing I can do to stop it.
Alarm bells are blaring in my mind, and sirens are echoing throughout my soul.
......
I said I wanted quiet—
now I flinch when I get it.
There’s a hum in the silence
that sounds like regret,
but I don’t name it.
Not out loud.
I still walk like I’m untouchable.
Still flirt with ruin like it’s mine to keep.
But some nights, I miss softness
......
I have this sinking feeling that something bad is about to happen
I don't know what this bad thing is. but it is coming.
I feel as if there is something on the horizon hanging over my every move
I am utterly terrified that I am about to lose something.
As if I am about to lose something so terribly important that I would not exist without it.
I am utterly afraid that I am about to lose myself and there is nothing I can do to stop it.
Alarm bells are blaring in my mind, and sirens are echoing throughout my soul.
......