Do you suffer loneliness at night?
Keep a hold
Are you stirred, shattered and shy?
Don't let it go
Is there any doubt when the hurt, the hurt it does you proud?
Draw circles round the targets,
Look how far you've came.
With bare feet, keep running
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We can be whatever you want
Even when you strip away the things I want we can still be friends as long as it’s what you want.
When I’m mad and sad and frustrated.
No matter what I do to be near you it isn’t enough. You take away everything and leave me trying to hold on. But it feels like it’s time to let go.
You’re asking me to be something I’m not. You’re asking me to be mature and bite my tongue. To hide the way I feel. To turn away from what I felt inside. To lick it up and throw it away. Deny myself and negate my own experience. How fucked up am I? Why did I enable this?
When all someone does is clarify the view of your inadequacy. Sharpens the definition to reveal the details of each and every shortcoming. One after the other.
You can’t have what you got from me anymore. No matter what it was. Was it for you or was it for me? Where else will you look when you realize? What was I?
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As she walks away
To a new life
A new, alien life that I won’t be a part of
Thunder fills the untamed decibels in the air
The atmosphere shifts
With each vibration
As sound permeates every centimeter of earth
You can feel it coming
The water, meant to rejuvenate life on this planet
It means to start anew
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Ceramic shard, reflective and hypnotic.
O! A sudden bite. Another for the collection.
How it burrows and gouges.
Just let it go!
But the beautiful ceramic it once was may yet be preserved.
Through kintsugi or some other fine art.
Yet it hurts tremendously.
So why not let it go?
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I wonder, were you it? Will anyone ever love me the way you loved me, or were you it? Will anyone ever lose sleep thinking about me, pining over me the way you did, or were you it? I think you were it. I can’t sleep because I think you were it. Because now there is nothing. It’s done. And I will never again be loved so deeply. And I will never again be wanted so deeply. And I will never again be the reason he can’t sleep. How could you have ever loved me. There is nothing here deserving of love. How did you see this mess as something worth loving. Will anyone else see me the way you did. Please tell me you weren’t it. Please tell me you were only the beginning. tell me there is more.
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Ich öffene meine Hände,
als hielte ich Wasser,
das nie mir gehörte.
Der Wind nimmt
was ich nicht mehr halten kann,
ohne Eile,
ohne zurückzublicken.
Und irgendwo
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I open my hands,
as if holding water
that was never mine.
The wind takes
what I can no longer keep
without haste,
without looking back.
And somewhere
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Ik vouw mijn handen open,
alsof ik water draag
dat niet van mij is.
De wind neemt
wat ik niet meer kan houden,
zonder haast,
zonder terugkijken.
En ergens
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Who will say goodbye
Will the reason stand in season
explanation follows treason
Look me in the eye.
Who will say goodbye
Perhaps an undelivered lie
a fine line
a misunderstanding of the heart
an actor lost in part
words to fall apart
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Beneath the arches, time lets go,
A whispering current’s steady flow.
Bruised reflections drift and gleam,
Carrying burdens into the stream.
What once was heavy now feels light,
The bridge stands still through day and night.
For water passes, and so do we,
Letting the past dissolve, set free.