Something dreadful comes my way,
Should I run?
Do I deserve to be saved?
Or is it even?
Am I just bracing myself forever?
Would you let me come home,
If you had keys to heaven's gate?
Should I run?
Do I deserve to be saved?
......
Past the mirror, quick.
Head down. Eyes down.
You already know you look sick.
You watch where their eyes double back
and it sticks in your mind.
Still behind,
when you find yourself back where you started.
Watch how they twist up their face.
You don't know what it means.
......
I'm surrounded by people, but still feel alone,
I'm running, not stopping, or I'll turn to stone.
The moment my feet freeze the panic sets in,
My tongue turns to silver, my heart turns to tin!
I'm petrified,
And I cannot move,
I'm terrified,
I've got everything to lose-
......
She’s afraid of spiders, heights, losing and snakes. I’m afraid to sail and make mistakes.
He’s afraid of clowns and baboons. She’s afraid of dogs and raccoons.
One jumps at the sound of balloons popping, and the other jumps at horns honking.
He is afraid to read aloud, and she is afraid to be in a crowed.
They hate small spaces, and they hate frowning faces.
What are you afraid of? They wondered. What I told them, they all shuddered.
I’m afraid of all those things and more. I said. I’m afraid of insects, the dentist and laying in bed.
I’m afraid of grass, trees and everything that grows. I’m afraid of rocks, roads and mud in my toes.
I hate eating and drinking, working and tinking. Breathing is hard for me, and why do I have to see.
I’m afraid of dying she said. Me, I’m afraid of surviving.
......
Does her smile warm your dreams like it warms mine
A flicker in the night
At peace with pale moon light
The wishing stars whisper my name
They whisper only lies
I fear the tide
When the sun has ceased its shine
I must not fight, moonlight
Does his frown taunt your dreams like it taunts mine
......
Does her smile warm your dreams like it warms mine
A flicker in the night
At peace with pale moon light
The wishing stars whisper my name
They whisper only lies
I fear the tide
When the sun has ceased its shine
I must not fight, moonlight
Does his frown taunt your dreams like it taunts mine
......
It starts with a spark that lands on some bark,
It burns loud and bright and clear,
But in the depths of it’s cave,
It must snake through a maze,
Before tinder and logs appear
It builds and it burns,
It pills and it purrs,
Clawing at a chance to ignite
......
I only know
how to write
sad things
sad songs
sad brings along
the anger,
the angst from my teens
my spiritual upbringing
......
Are my thoughts too loud,
Does the breeze of my breath graze your skin in the heat of summer?
And my hands cling too tightly that your palms sweat,
And you count the seconds until I notice?
Do my words come out staggered and awkward-
Far apart and yet too close,
And do I linger far too long for hands held too stiff for an applause? [one that won’t occur]
Do you like me kinder, sweeter and quiet?
Am I preferred to lie in the heat of battle,
......
Who's this man in the mirror,
I have seen him, don't know him.
He is hostile, he doesn't like me,
Never believes a word I say,
I don't either,
Sometimes he cries tenderly,
I don't want to join him.
He will never like me,
It's not worth even trying.