I was a test drive, or worse still a joy ride?
I thought it was love, and I was so blind,
Blind love messed up my life,
And finally, you left me to strive?
Now the love's like acid in my veins,
Waiting for the chance to give back pain,
The knife's twisting farther into my flesh,
And the hatred builds up like never before.
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Proverbs 13:24
He stares at his feet so
he doesn’t see the belt
In his father’s grip.
Over dinner, he’d spoken up,
Or out,
Or back,
The exact angle or fact of the offense
......
There was a girl
Turned 23 last year
Only a year ago
She knew something had to change
So she wracked her brain
Looked for an answer
Her river of hope ran dry
They all turned a blind eye
......
In the maze of doubt and insecurity, I'd tread,
Gaslit and projected upon, my spirit often led,
Every turn, a challenge, uncertainties grew,
In this narcissistic grip, I questioned what was true.
With each step I took, shadows seemed to loom,
As you gaslighted me, a relentless gloom,
Navigating the maze, my mind in disarray,
In this labyrinth of doubt, I'd search for a way.
......
I write this now, moments after they quarrelled,
Depressing, I notice our evening plans got cancelled
Over one phone call dad made in the backyard,
Mom asked who that was? Then he flew off the handle,
"It doesn't concern you woman", he shouted,
I could hear her repeating the word "sorry" aloud and
Stuttering as she apologised for asking,
But the old man didn't care so he started unmasking
That hideous, fearful demon inside him,
Who made him feel like a man he took pride in,
......
It happened again.
I was doing so good
About avoiding it too.
I thought I had removed
All the people who
Would do it to me.
I didn’t.
I never will.
......
My whole life has been one big atomic bomb..
i still think to this day i was born wrong
From being abused being my first memories ,
to now having a disorder that changes my chemistries
......
A little girl, innocent and sweet,
Her life filled with hardship, never a retreat.
At the tender age of seven, she faced a cruel fate,
Exposed to a world of darkness, where love could not abate.
The sexual community, a place of fear,
Where innocence is lost and scars appear.
Little Elly, unaware of the danger that loomed,
Peer pressure took hold, her innocence consumed.
......
Think
Before you put your hands on me
Think
Before you undo my dress
Think
Before you slam me on the table
Think
Before you my lay upon my chest
Think
Before you move any closer
......
In the maze of doubt and insecurity, I'd tread,
Gaslit and projected upon, my spirit often led,
Every turn, a challenge, uncertainties grew,
In this narcissistic grip, I questioned what was true.
With each step I took, shadows seemed to loom,
As you gaslighted me, a relentless gloom,
Navigating the maze, my mind in disarray,
In this labyrinth of doubt, I'd search for a way.
......