This darkness in my head,
Sanity has vanished, dead.
A fire burning inside of me,
Talking to friends no one can see.
The voices growing bold,
Emotion has vanished, now i'm cold.
On autopilate forced to act,
Without thought or tact.
Running up to the roof,
Attempting the jump, thats the proof.
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Anorexia, Anxiety, Depression, Self-Harm, Suicide
How you have become my friends
You have grown up with me and have been by my side
Friends I could not live without
You guys have controlled my life
And have left me at the end of my rope
What I go through every day is very real
You have put me through the lowest darkest times
It angers me when people put off my issues
Like they don't even care, they don't even try
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I was always suffering in silence.
I laughed and smiled but inside I was in more pain than you could imagine.
Everyone simply passed by without seeing a thing.
One after another they all looked at me and continued on.
Not a single one could see my suffering.
I was invisible.
But not to you.
You saw I was hurting.
Because you were hurting too.
And that’s the only thing that made it bearable.
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There’s this whisper I hear when I’m alone
The one that fills me with uncertainty
If I try hard enough to push it away I can pretend it’s not there
Surround myself with people to drown out the noise and I feel almost normal
Only, it never truly left
Waiting in the shadows of my mind, lurking until it knows I have nowhere to escape
And it grows
It echoes in my ears until I’m consumed by the lies it tells
Those are the moments I long for the time it was only
A whisper
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From the day I was told to mature,
I knew I never would.
I was always going to be the clown.
From the moment I saw what a real friend looked like,
I knew I wasn’t normal.
A few backhanded comments from my dad,
a few whispers across the class.
A couple of days alone,
a few quiet tears shed.
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The old jaggernaut's dream
Filled brain juice to the brim
Withstand this tale's grim
So no more you'd be trapped by the gleam
Once, spoke a hummingbird, blaring clickity and clackity throbs:
"You shall not prevail better than my voice."
The bird hums with an echo so loud, jollying bold brazen yaps,
Letting the whole forest hear her obnoxious melodies
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His story had started
But he wanted to end it
His story had started
With all the feelings he blended
Right foot then left foot
He began to wobble
Right foot only
He began to hobble
He reached out for help
but he couldn't find it
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Fallen leaves
A lack of green
My brush strokes on the canvas
I paint the sands in all it's Tanness
Cactus thorns and rows of corn
Snow and rain
Confusing pain
Light with no sun and Laughter with no fun
I'm not understanding
Trees in the sand
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