YOU can keep your antique silver and your statuettes of bronze,
Your curios and tapestries so fine,
But of all your treasures rare there is nothing to compare
With this patched up, wornout football pal o’ mine.
Just a patchedup wornout football, yet how it clings!
I live again my happier days in thoughts that football brings.
It’s got a mouth, it’s got a tongue,
And oft when we’re alone I fancy that it speaks
To me of golden youth that’s flown.
It calls to mind our meeting,
......
I wish that I could say, ‘It will become easier’.
I wish that I could erase those five years of loneliness
I wish that I could take you back to times of laughter and happiness gone by
I wish that I could freeze-frame every one of your memories
I wish I could cause you to breathe with ease
The freshness of a cool refreshing breeze
I wish that I could convince you that you are never alone
But that when he visits your thoughts and dreams,
you will remember how happy he made you
And when you ponder the privilege that you had of both loving and being loved by him
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Even as I write him now he is but a poem in a poem
Oh they taken my Peter Winn farther than he’s ever been
Twas was a home by the sea.
Ti’ll they taken him from me.
Now I cry as sorrow sets and depression creeps.
Oh why take my love, my Peter Winn from me.
Wars the horror of mothers as is wives.
He left me just an empty husk of no one wanted and no one loved.
Tis my heart was twined in eternal melancholy.
To tell tales of love, loss, and utter folly.
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If you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you;
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too:
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or, being lied about, don't deal in lies,
Or being hated don't give way to hating,
And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise;
If you can dream- -and not make dreams your master;
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crushed between gaping maw
stained teeth/stained jaw
taste of oil lips
bloodshot eyes/bruised hips
twenty-seven jokers
two cards/one deck
Dear diary, 09/03/2024 ~Lacy~
Today I walked into class.
My hands were shaking and palms sweaty.
I don’t know these people.
what if I do somthing stupid.
what if they hate me.
what if i’m ugly.
I sat down in an empty chair and pulled out my workbook.
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crushed between gaping maw
stained teeth/stained jaw
taste of oil lips
bloodshot eyes/bruised hips
twenty-seven jokers
two cards/one deck
in another universe
you and I never part.
the sun comes up and we still lay together,
washed with the glow of another day
very much in love.
sometimes knowing this universe exists
and that I will never see it
hurts me in a way I never knew I could be hurt.
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Oh mother, oh father, if only I could speak
If only I could tell you all that I feel,
All that I wish I had said before it was too late.
I wish I could tell you that I love you,
That your laughter was the music of my heart,
That your smile was my guiding light in the darkest of nights.
I wish I could tell you that I'm sorry,
For the pain I caused, for the tears I made you cry,
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As children we splashed around in puddles
And look for rainbows when the sky cleared.
Loving life and the simplicities of what made us happy.
Completely ignorant of the struggles of the world.
As we grew older, we grew bolder.
Instead of waiting for the rain to stop.
We’d simply run out the door as quickly as we could,
Smiling and holding each other’s hand.
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