I was saved because of you
I felt numb for so long
Thought I’d never find enough
But you restarted my heart
Reminded me there was love
You showed me I could find more
That I was worth fighting for
So I fought for myself
Even though it felt like failure
......
It runs in my family
I thought I was lucky
That the gene had skipped me
It turns out I was wrong
It’s not a substance I can’t give up
It’s you I am addicted to
Years went by
And the need was barely there
I thought I was done
......
you sit in your room and write songs about me
long about what we couldn’t keep
and everything we used to think
somethings sweet and somethings mean
but you’re the one who stopped talking to me
even though i was on the brink of leaving
everything you say is wrong
all those twisted up emotions in your song
or at least it’s not what you told me
telling the world your feelings is still hiding
......
How long
Can pressure be applied
Before the coal turns to dust and you realize there is no diamond?
How long
Will you keep saying "You've tried"
Before dismay replaces trust and you finally stop trying?
How long
Can you keep adding straws,
......
In pink mists,
sunflowers aren't seen,
craving sun,
of June noon.
Midday blooms laugh in meadows
of ageless summer!
I was saved because of you
I felt numb for so long
Thought I’d never find enough
But you restarted my heart
Reminded me there was love
You showed me I could find more
That I was worth fighting for
So I fought for myself
Even though it felt like failure
......
It runs in my family
I thought I was lucky
That the gene had skipped me
It turns out I was wrong
It’s not a substance I can’t give up
It’s you I am addicted to
Years went by
And the need was barely there
I thought I was done
......
you sit in your room and write songs about me
long about what we couldn’t keep
and everything we used to think
somethings sweet and somethings mean
but you’re the one who stopped talking to me
even though i was on the brink of leaving
everything you say is wrong
all those twisted up emotions in your song
or at least it’s not what you told me
telling the world your feelings is still hiding
......
Happy moments bloom
ever in full beauty,
like a delicate flower
wafting sweet fragrance
of pleasing felicity,
of cherished longings.
Some time later
they grow red and pale,
all fade and wither
as the leaves, dried
......
I’ve never known love
Grace, I showed
Intelligence, I possessed
Attention, I did not lack
With a man always at my back
Countless hearts, I used
Until they bruised
Meticulously, I dwindled men
......