You were caught up in the realities,
While I was in a different world.
It wasn’t magical, where once I belonged;
Your presence was something for which I longed.
As understanding as I should be,
I understand you were busy.
But I still don’t know why—
It makes me sadder than I like to be.
......
I never belonged here,
Everyone hurts me, I swear.
Even my own aren’t mine,
Everyone betrays me, nothing’s fine.
Everyone wants to see me broke,
Feels like someone’s praying for a stroke.
Everyone kills me, Not with a sword,
but with a sharpest word .
......
I stand now
in the kingdom of heaven
Twiddling my thumbs wondering
When I’ll come back down
To the east falls the red sun
Under it, sand billows and vents
Reminiscing two crumbling feet
A crown for bloodlines since run
Know that I sit here unburdened
......
There is a peace to being lonesome
At times you can hear
The earth breathe
The cracks in all we’ve made
The slow quiet sounds of what came before
And the louder, newer groans of what’s come since
Loneliness can find you
In a room full of people
People you’ve never met
......
The wind last night was something else
In the sun I felt warmed from the outside in
Warmed down a few centimeters only to be robbed
By gusts of icy chill foreshadowing this morning’s snow
I sat outside a taco joint reading Heaney
Waiting for a date I knew wasn’t showing up
I’ve been so hungry to connect my prerequisites
Have fallen away one by one
How can I climb out of this hole and feel the sun again?
There’s a difference between the sort of warmth that sheds layers
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De avond valt
zonder lawaai
in de lege kamer.
Ik ben alleen
maar niet alleen
met dit gevoel.
Het is de rust
van de toeschouwer
......
Ik heb door de lege straten gelopen
en de stilte heeft mij gevolgd.
De regen is gevallen zonder haast
en heeft het asfalt donker gemaakt.
Ik heb de ramen zien oplichten
terwijl binnenstemmen hebben geklonken.
Iemand heeft gelachen achter glas,
een deur is zacht dichtgevallen.
......
I hunger for a poetic power
Though, time is running out
I wanted to be well known
There's would've been biographies
My books would be discussed in colleges
Or be banned in the South
I would win several prizes
And recite my words all over the world
Protecting the bomb, destruction of the environment
And censorship
......
You were caught up in the realities,
While I was in a different world.
It wasn’t magical, where once I belonged;
Your presence was something for which I longed.
As understanding as I should be,
I understand you were busy.
But I still don’t know why—
It makes me sadder than I like to be.
......
Let me sing higher
Though, off-key
Let me dance for joy once more
Like the sun and the moon evolve around me
Protecting my heart from the loneliness
That I have felt this year
Since I lost yr love
I don't care what's going on
I move with numbness
And wander without a desire
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