Why does my life always end up this way?
No matter what I do nobody comes to save the day
Although the sun shines and the birds sing
No matter how far I walk my ears just continue to ring
Walking
Turning
Running
Panting
Breathing
......
I only know
how to write
sad things
sad songs
sad brings along
the anger,
the angst from my teens
my spiritual upbringing
......
What do I do?
I feel like everything just keeps going wrong.
Things get worse and worse and never improve.
Every time I see the light, I can never reach it.
What do I do?
Hope is there.
Just at the edge of my fingers.
At the tip of my tongue.
It’s under my nose.
......
I cried so hard last night
That I played a song on repeat
It was one I pulled from a Spotify playlist
That I want to assume is yours
It sounds like a lullaby
And I imagined you singing it to me
Telling me it'll be alright
And running your fingers down my face
......
No-hope Tuesdays have become my favourite
as i fall deeper into a sense of helplessness of a blissful kind
a dull,full moment of acceptance.
And many empty ones of grief.
the bar is falling lower everyday
spirits down swimming in the depths of the
depressions in the ocean floor of my soul
that's where my joy hides.
And love
but i haven't seen her in a while.
......
What do I do?
I feel like everything just keeps going wrong.
Things get worse and worse and never improve.
Every time I see the light, I can never reach it.
What do I do?
Hope is there.
Just at the edge of my fingers.
At the tip of my tongue.
It’s under my nose.
......
I only know
how to write
sad things
sad songs
sad brings along
the anger,
the angst from my teens
my spiritual upbringing
......
Each morning,
I lace up the same silence
and wear it like armor.
Smiles crack
before they reach my eyes.
I speak,
but he words feel borrowed.
......
Why does my life always end up this way?
No matter what I do nobody comes to save the day
Although the sun shines and the birds sing
No matter how far I walk my ears just continue to ring
Walking
Turning
Running
Panting
Breathing
......
I don't get scared easily
I'm the tipe of person who'd watch a horror film and laugh at it
But the thing that truly scares me is being alone, is being obandent
When you're alone you don't have a wall to hold on to, there would truly be no point, no point in doing stuff, in existing, in living
If I ever was alone in this big horrifying thing called life
I'd just give up, give up and die, die alone in the cold harsh would that we live in
Don't you agree
I'm truly curious what do you think
If you're alone in the cold harsh would would you just end it before you realize how sad and alone you are