When looking back I dimly see
The trails my feet have trod,
Some hand divine, it seems to me,
Has pulled the strings with God;
Some angel form has lifeward leaned
When hope for me was past;
Some love sublime has intervened
To save me at the last.
For look you! I was born a fool,
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Write this. We have burned all their villages
Write this. We have burned all the villages and the people in them
Write this. We have adopted their customs and their manner of dress
Write this. A word may be shaped like a bed, a basket of tears or an X
In the notebook it says, It is the time of mutations, laughter at jokes,
secrets beyond the boundaries of speech
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1.
Oh yes, friend! I'm crazy-
that's just the way I am.
2.
I see sounds,
I hear sights,
I taste smells,
I touch not heaven but things from the underworld,
things people do not believe exist,
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LARA.
CANTO THE FIRST.
I.
The Serfs are glad through Lara's wide domain,
And slavery half forgets her feudal chain;
He, their unhoped, but unforgotten lord —
The long self-exiled chieftain is restored:
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I am afraid, oh I am so afraid!
The cold black fear is clutching me to-night
As long ago when they would take the light
And leave the little child who would have prayed,
Frozen and sleepless at the thought of death.
My heart that beats too fast will rest too soon;
I shall not know if it be night or noon, --
Yet shall I struggle in the dark for breath?
Will no one fight the Terror for my sake,
The heavy darkness that no dawn will break?
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I can hear the cars passing down below
The lights light up the street
I can feel the wind blowing on my face
I doubt anyone is looking for me
I am drowning in my own fear
I just want to be free
I am stuck in my body, waiting to be free
There are kids skipping on the pavement below
I’m so scared, I’m overflowed in my own fear
I can see every person, every dog, every cat walking on the street
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Slobber on his shovel; this old man shits nothing.
Naked and shaking; his begging lips crack.
He swallows his honey, swinging his lanterns;
but piercing his darkness: two button eyes –
rimmed golden; reflections of want glazing his jowl.
His shadows birth those dregs swallowed.
Hounding sweet truth, his lanterns in hand.
Shine they do not, but gulp and lick that
waste remaining; unknown, still crunching.
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Against ribs, three valvate knots press
mountains under skin. Sundered kin,
bound lights swim in fountains found
within. Hollowed skies, mirrored blood.
Love is true, dipped in mud.
Sea-sunk eyes, nothing deeper.
Seek out birth, cut through ether.
Essence, still, solvate crust.
Diamonds wear; remnant pus.
Aeons spent, luring flies.
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Let me be the form you take to live through your days, the lighthouse behind your eyes, your visions be mine, I'll never want to stop feeling your soul, embraced through my chest,
Come be with my hands, your fingers spelling old songs in my arms,
Let your lips hold behind those resting upon our face, so that every word hangs upon them, ours, yours, before reaching someone else's ears,
to show you what you've never known to love, so that your loves are always mine own,
Tell me what your favorite song is, the way it touches your lungs so softly, it seeps from your smell,
Hold me when I'm alone, with shoulders all my own,
Scream into my head so it's filled with your thoughts,
Tell me to stop,
tell me why i should,
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Winter winds,
Chills sent through my body.
Falling leaves,
Memory of what once was
Frosted glass,
A reminder, I am outside the window.
Chattering teeth,
Secluded from the warmth inside.
Winter winds,
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