Nevermore _


Insecurities

What is wrong with me?
I'm insane
Coming home every day
I can't seem to let things go
Everything that bothers me
Never seems to leave
I'm depressed
Can't seem to forget
Swirling around in my head
Every regret
Everything I said
Wishing I was dead,
A bullet through the head
Maybe that I won't have to wake again
To make a mistake again
Cry myself to sleep again
Maybe this will be ok
Trying not to be afraid
It's overwhelming,
Shivering and sweating
Nauseous
I'm vomiting
And I move again
Working
Laughing, talking
Smiling
I'm terrified my facade may fail
My mask may break
They'll see me
And be disgusted
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