I feel so alone
It feels exhilarating
This loneliness
Just thinking about
Nothing

Drifting
Falling
Oh…
Drowning

It all feels so great
It feels so great to drift
To fall
To drown

I don’t have anyone.
They say I do.
They say…
I can count on them.
Haha… Funny.
So funny.

Those very people in the past have all…
They have all left.
They’re gone.
How could I trust new ones?
It feels better anyways
To just be alone

I don’t even want to be near anyone.
I say I do.
I say…
I want people near.
I don’t.

I feel so peaceful right now
Nobody is here
Just me
And my thoughts

My thoughts are clouds
My mind is empty
Spacious
Oh…
Space.
So much… Space?

Is there space?
There’s… space in my mind.

Is there… space?
Outside my mind?


Is there… people?
People I can count on?

No…
No, no, no, no, no…
No, there’s…

There’s no one.
There’s no one to count on but yourself.
No one’s there for you.
No one’s waiting for you.

Don’t.
Listen.

Don’t.
Trust.

They will.
They will leave you eventually.

Stop thinking.
There’s no one.

There’s.
There is nobody.
No one is there
Just

BE

QUIET

…

It’s… so peaceful
The only one here is my mind and me
My empty mind and I
Just drifting
Just… falling
Just…
Oh…
Drowning

All so nice
Such a nice feeling

I want to feel like this
When I give myself to the afterlife.

I feel like I’m ready
I want to give myself to the afterlife.

Right now
Right now I…

So desperately I…

I want…

I want to go
To the afterlife.

I will drive there
The Highway to Hell

It will take me nowhere
And that’s just where I want to be.

The afterlife
Is nowhere

I am
Nowhere

I am
No one

There is
No one

No one here
Nowhere here

Here is where I am?
I am.

I am nothingness
I feel nothing

I feel
Like
I want

To pass away
They will be happy for me when I do
Will they?

No
No, no, no, no, no…

They won’t remember you.
They won’t… look for you.

Who are you?
Who am I?
Oh…
I am…
I am drowning.
My brain is melting.

I see such a wonderful life ahead of me.
A family, a lovely household,

Financial well-being,
Colleges…
Jobs…

Oh… I’m a wife.
He’s… My love…

He… He doesn’t exist.
My future kids… they aren’t…

They aren’t there!
Where are my kids?
My husband?

They… they don’t exist...
They… they aren’t… there.
Because…

I don’t lead that life.
I am dead.