I could blame it on many things.
My parents,
my friends,
the move,
Life

It would be all wrong
and right

It was none of them alone
and it was all of them at once

and
of course
Me

It’s always hard to tell
when you’ve gone too far

Leaned too far
Gravity hugging you
and pulling you

Then the ground isn’t beneath your feet at all
and wind is rushing past your ears
and you can’t hear
you can’t hear yourself scream
and flailing your limbs won’t help
and the sky is the only thing you can see
and the sky isn’t getting any smaller
like you aren’t getting further and further away from it
and it should be beautiful
the sky so blue
but the tears blur

the tears ruin it

But you aren’t supposed to know that
I wasn’t supposed to know that

No one is supposed to know that

Family,
Friends,
Life,

should be behind you,
pulling you back
when you lean too forward,

catch you when you fall

but in the end

I was the most responsible

I was supposed to pull myself back
when I leaned too forward

to catch myself

because it’s my life after all