Every night I stay awake
Then curse upon the sun
Until my dreams can swallow me
And from myself I run

Stumbling up the stairway
I ignore the field of flags
Convince myself they’re burgundy
And shred them into rags

I thrive beneath the shadow
I tell myself each night
As the fingers in the darkness
Choke me out without a fight

In my bed I’m safe and warm
You can’t make me leave
A better day with my eyes closed
When I wake up, I grieve

I quickly mask with anger
To cope with what is life
Reflections are a stranger
As I dissolve into the night

But, somewhere deep within my skin
This feeling I can’t shake
Promise that once lingered there
Lost without daybreak