what i tell people about my sister and i:
since we were babies
my sister and i never fought
we are each others
all rolled into one
what i don’t tell people about my sister and i:
my sister makes me feel the most free
and the most trapped
at the same time.
i feel pressured to speak up
even when i’d rather be silent.
we don’t mesh,
my sister and i
she is loud when it matters
i am quiet no matter what
i am happy to sit with
and let other people's words speak for me
i used to let my sister tell strangers my name
instead of sounding my way through three simple syllables
now i let my friends speak for me
what i think
why i think it
am i any better at writing than speaking?
i write things i’ll never say out loud.
even though my sister is more rebellious
i can help in silent ways
i’ll stand over the bathtub and help her dye her hair red
and hold her hand while she gets a tattoo
i’ll always be on her side
i'll always be on her side