I followed God's call, said "yes" with joy,
Life was bright, nothing could destroy.
But one small mistake, just a tiny slip,
Now all my hard work starts to dip.
They say I must prove myself again,
But how much effort? How much pain?
These thoughts come back, again and again,
Bringing doubt, like falling rain.
This year feels heavy, not made for me,
Full of sorrow, wishing to be free.
Will my worries ever end one day?
Will peace and answers come my way?
It's not about love or work alone,
But something deeper, in my bones.
Is it wise to carry this weight,
While others chase a lighter fate?
"Live in the now," they always say,
But who maps out tomorrow's way?
Past, present, future all connect,
A tangled thread I can't neglect.
All I want is a life that's clear,
Happy, calm, and free from fear.
Is it too much to dream of rest—
A quiet soul, a heart that's blessed?