When I indulge with them, I exhaust myself.
If I stay alone with me, I grow gloomy and depressed.
When I love, I hurt both of us.
When I think of loving myself,
I find me inadequate, flawed and imperfect.
And I grow self-doubt.
When I flaunt and show off
I am filled with a deep "Guilt of arrogance".
When I try to be humble and nobody,
I hurt my self-esteem and feel exploited.
So either way I suffer !
Is 'Suffering' the reality of this ephemeral world?
Do whatever you can out of that 'either-or'.
Anyway, You will suffer !