Bearing the weight
Another day
Another moment of loss
Grief speaks in the silence
When joys feel as a set up for sorrow
Carried away, lost for yesterday
How do I face tomorrow

Absence the presence, the haunting
Parched by memory, thirsty, unquenchable wanting

Significant moments of annual appreciation
As I celebrate her heart, a love like no other
Inadequate sentiments versed to honor the life of my mother

Can you hear me on the other side?
Is my life a reflection that attests to your virtue?
When I’m so aware of all the ways that I’ve failed
The ways that I hurt you
Knowing yet all that exists in your heart and mind
Is the poetry you made of me stanzas of lifeline

When you only ever saw me after the pattern of what I did right
Your love an echo that lives on in me in the guidance of an invisible light
I live on as I waver between nights of day and days of night

In the comfort and heaviness of the will to endure
When every breath burns in my lungs in high definition emotions when dreams are a blur
The ache lingers on but if this ache is the only bond I have left, I don’t want the cure

Tethered to heaven, heart strings like umbilical cords pulsing rebirth
When this world is the gates of hell, every thought of you is beautiful suffering transcending the earth

You are the joy set before me despite the present pain
As you bloom in my heart where your legacy grows overcast skies resurrect me in rain

Whether comfort or the illusion of the sting
It all stands as a reminder that I’m still alive
As you live on inside of me
I learn from your heart still beating in me, what it means to thrive
Continuing on in the clock work of routine
I stop for a moment to calibrate and become who you raised me to be
I know you’re still alive somewhere unseen
Interceding in heaven, never giving up on me

Happy Mother’s Day, thankful for who you were and still are
As I think of you I’m reminded a part of you still lives in me and you’re not so far…