Matthew Conrad

May 15, 1986 - Ostrowiec Świętokrzyski

pig latin: schweinlatein

all are equal... but then again: none are...
if i am not allowed to think, to breathe, to "speak"...
by the careless extension
of "speech" and, interweaving...
"thinking" - encompassed by the dictum of
encoding sounds...
what am i?
mute? parody braille minder?! what am i?
apparently to be bound
to be found as the "public intellectual":
the intellect to be made public?!
only the english could fathom such a curiosity...
the "public", "intellectual"...
i have before me the whip, the cult, the harangue,
the guillotine...
the gallows... sophistry's
worth of the hurricane!
the, cru-ci-fi-x-ion "borrowing"...
your god...
my? under-study...
and then "they" blame
the pagans when succumbing to
sacrifice...
deus dicit: (ego) facite...
(ego) facite:
deus doceo populus:
at this point god doesn't have
to say anything...
he doesn't even have to exist,
luxury holiday...
he can even, simply, ignore:
deus est mort...
a god on holiday is as much
on vacation as "he" is dead...
given: vacantly "he" delivered himself
from all evil: the omni- prefix reminder...
the people have spoken...
the individual has remained "anonymous"
before the eyes of the "almighty"...
the supposed pagan cult
of human sacrifice...
so the romans nailed a fucking oyster
to a tongue slit into a crucifix
geometry?
no human sacrifice became of
the "revisionist" blood-cult...
no poetic cannibalism surrounding:
this is my body, this is my blood...
nothing?!
i've learned a long time ago...
that...
i don't like living in a plagiarism...
this schweinlatein?
perhaps you can curiosity
feed the protestant anglo-saxons
for a while longer...
defending irish: zeitgeist reminders...
i'm tired of this story...
a man will easily tire...
when the orthodox-fiction,
is beside the biblio-archeology of
the nag hammadi libarary...
you can accept the chinese whisper
crass plato dialogues of
st. thomas' gospel...
i can't accept it...
so coincidental that it happened in 1945...
no.... nein! nein! nein!
even the genesis:
the judeo-greek propaganda machine
to counter roman rule...
at least the old testament genesis
had some sort of poetic beauty:
mind you?
the apple can be easily replaced
with a magic mushroom...
but beginning with
a made-up genealogy?
i was born in the 20th century?
do you think i can go back
more than... me, father, grandfather,
great-grandfather...
great-great-grandfather...
for the worth of the common man?
no genealogy goes beyond these tiers!
unless?! unless: you're born as...
an awaiting, monarch!
i've made this observational investment
ahead of my time...
i didn't need nietzsche...
it just happened: off and of itself...
the christian mainstream will lie:
the dead sea scrolls are a ref.
to the old testament, to the book of Isaiah...
why won't they speak of the nag hammadi
library?
they won't... because?
they won't!
i've read what's required
reading...
even r. d. laing: the revolutionary
psychiatrists knew what was coming
in the 1960s... a citation from st. thomas'
gospel:

when you make the one two,
and when you make the inner as the outer
and the outer as the inner and the above
as the below, and when you
make the male and the female into a single one,
so that the male will not be male and
the female not be female, when you make
eyes in the place of an eye...

(r. d. laing: bird of paradise,
V, GOSPEL, ACCORDING TO, DOUBTING THOMAS;
i.e. V: thee: V'eh: the point)...

what is scary... the psychiatric community
had access to the nag hammadi library
in the 1960s... the nag hammadi was discovered
in 1945...
the current right wing politico propagandist
blame post-constructionism...
deconstructionism...
cultural-marxism... whatever useful term
is necessary...

i read this text and think:
what's so different to the current transgender
"affair"? is it cultural-marxism?
is it?! isn't it heretical unorthodox christianity
itself?!
you sure? you want to blame the jews
for this 'un' too?
you sure hey-zeus isn't at fault with this one?
sounds like a pretty fucking transgender
statement to me: from
the gob of st. thomas!

communism is a scapegoat these days:
yes yes, a failed economic model...
the current model looks just: fine!
manufacturing jobs are soon to
revisit their origins...
no one is to make capitalism
foolish: it is far more capitalistic
to have manufacturing jobs in h'america...
than in MADE IN CHINA...
sure sure... because the products
made in h'america will / would last
20 years... while those made in china...
will last? 20 months...
bad for capitalism...
why would capitalism revise
its ethics built upon quality?
when it can receive unlimited
revisions and no-ethics built upon
a, quantity?
capitalism once cared about
quality...
oops or rather "sorry": quantity
not quality...
exponential means of supply:
which is beside the desired worth
of production...
eh... the right wing populists can blame
jews, communism, cultural-marxism all they want...
i blame cultural-darwinism...
anglo-saxon solipsism...
and? the nag hammadi library.
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