Levi Paniccia

January 19, 2011- California
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I Hate You

I’m nothing like how you wanted me to be now
I have changed how you want me to be
I’m a lot different now
Then I ever was so many years ago
And I’m here because you wanted me to be, but the way you raised me fucked me a little to much

I’m supposed to be a perfect child
I have to have good grades
I can’t like the same gender
I can’t refer to myself as a man,
or go by a male name
I have to do all the cleaning

I have to be a therapist
I have to respect everyone
I have to be everything that you want me to be, but I can’t do everything I want me to be
I can never open up to you because you’ll never listen or truly love me

I’ve tried to fix our relationship but you never
Wanted to put in the effort
This is because we have a one way relationship
I do everything for you and do everything you ask but I don’t get the same thing back

I’ve never been there unless you needed me
I’ve never been there unless you wanted something from me
You’ve never actually loved me even if you’ve told me so
You’ve always loved the oldest unconditionally

I just want to be there without you needing me
As your your youngest and emotionally neglected daughter I hate that I used to love you, I hope your life is shit when I move away
I will leave you and block you out of my life
I hate you and I don’t want to be with you

For the rest of my life
I hate having to be with you
All I do is suffer when your around
All I’ve ever wanted was your unconditional love
I hate you
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