Do people hate the name John because of the connotations of religion and baptism?
When parents name their kids John, do they expect them to be saviors of men, and paragons of religious purpose?
Is it supposed to be a blessed name? A handicap for an emotionally stunted man with no sure aim in life?
Why am I blessed and cursed with the John archetype?
I don’t know who I’m supposed to be, I try to be productive every day and live out my dreams but I’m not good enough?
Am I supposed to be a better person, how do you become a better person when you’re in a battle at every turn?
I’m battle scarred, downtrodden all in the name of freedom, is freedom really this hard to grasp?
Can I simply forget my name is John, forget the war and move on with my life?
Call me anything but John, but do I dare to erase my birthright given to me by my father?
I know he wishes I was a noble and God-fearing man, but freedom is so sweet, isn’t it?
Named after a Baptist but holding not a single ounce of the grace my dad hoped for, am I lost or are they lost?
Maybe if I give up my name, I can gain something else, like a new respect for this body and mind, is this just a beggar’s hope?
I wish I had guidance from an old man who won the war, do you let go of who you are and become who you were meant to be or do you stick to your guns?
I don’t know if my name will always be John, I don’t understand peace, all I have is the war inside.