The difficulty of passing between the chest thumps
as the beat swallows and then throws us back again
into the world, maybe on the same bed
that choked with the smell of our socks.
The difficulty of passing between the floors in front
of the hookers' rooms, where we're robbed of
our only desire and equalized with the creaking
iron in the studio's lock, for we don't know
what stuck to us as we ascended, and what
the maids left in our bedchambers.
. . . But as we take off our clothes along with the clownish
titles and the multi-colored feather hats that were thrown
upon us, the wrong name would still stick
like an artificial hand, and we may wait naked
for a while before our bodies are returned back to us.
We are extracted from our souls and given birth to in dirty
hotels where patience has the only dominion, patience that
throws us to the end of the world and the light that
no one will see, to suffocate without a sound
upon the sink's yellowish white,
and celebrate the plastic containers. As we
expect the moaning of the passing word of fate
in the latch of the ancient door.
It's difficult to remember, when memories
are like towels in the rooms
at the end of the corridor which is more public than
a cell, passing through names and passing through
bodies. It's desire, then, looking so deserted in its
long socks. The black skeleton of the iron
bed against the drooping shoulders.
The rose, sealed like a fingerprint on its stem
against the turned head on the pillow.
It's difficult to remember, when rain
calls like lost clouds, and when we do or don't
hear the punctured radiator taking off
again like a consumptive lung. Hear or don't
hear the clang of the loud chest
thumps or the beat that falls
into boredom. And from the ribs we hear that
second voice: "There's no need for more, no
need for more in one day."
What happens in the van-goghian sky
that's glimmering with solar suffocations, when
a third colour is added. It's either Cinderella's
shoe thrown away by the storm or
a nipple made erect by the cold. A third
colour is the body that descends from among
the thumps of the clouds, when they are plucked out
of our beings and we are born on a rotten bed with
the feather hats and the dry laurels,
and this body that was imprisoned with us.
He listens to the artery under her tongue.
He hears the vein and the duplicate pulse.
He hears the heart tripled by desire and thinks "I
have no heart," "I have no heart." "My air can't
keep me afloat." "I have no body."
A magnified moment whose explosions won't
reach me.
Water overflowed from the coffee pot putting out
the flame. Rain stopped. He won't dig out
the grand attack in his chest.
He'll only feel out his torso, taut
like a fork on the bed. Two bodies,
perpendicular, no overlap, enough space
for a missing beat. A cross, incomplete.
A body dies on another, of course. Says,
"I have no soul." It could be the deception of
fireworks that will spread out and then diminish while
I finish my coffee. These are rain preparations of course.
A broken flower in a vase and nothing's left of
that name that seemed as clear as a bait or
a heart beat. Nothing's left. The loudest
of the chest thumps, the loudest of the clouds'
thumps and the wretched voice whispering
once again from among the ribs: "There's no need
for more. There's no need for more in one
day."